4:32am

I was tossing and turning in bed about an hour ago. i was dreaming about a combination if school and my mom and brother smoking pot. in a house that was a combo of both grandparents. for some reason a guy in it was bothering me hanging out whereever i went. and this room had just had a bachelor party i was supposed to sleep in. smelled of cum. gross. the smell i couldnt get out of my head as i was trying to sleep. in the dream and out. i kept waking up and turning over trying to get the smell out of my nose. the more i woke up the more i realized i had to pee. i went into the bathroom and coudlnt find the toilet paper. the smell was overwhelming. its hard to go over this. im feeling like i want to puke. i wont go over it i dont want to trigger myself again. i had a flashback in the bathroom. it freaked me out. so now im awake. sometimes it hurts so much that i cant feel anything else.