7:50am

Hello bloggy blog blog.  I am sitting in the computer room with new resident, Richard.  He is swell.  And I too am doing swell sorta.  I gotta start going to 5 days a week at second chance in hayward.  it scares me because im afraid i might fail at it.  I just dont know how to keep myself motivated and going.  I am afraid that I will drink.  I am afraid that my resilience will fade.  I am afraid that I'll be homeless again.  I am afraid that I will dissapoint people that care about me.  I am afraid.

MALAIKA

MYSELF ADOPTS LOVABLE ANIMAL INTO KOOKY ABODE
MADE ABRUPT LIFE ALTERINGS IDEAL, KISMET ABLAZE
MALAIKA ANOINTING LICKS, ACCUSTOMED INTIMATE KISSES ABOUND
MIGHTY ANSWERS LEARNED AND IGNITE KEEN ACUMEN
MASTERFULLY AWARE, LUCIDLY ADEPT IN KNOWING ALL
MAGNETIC AVATAR, LIKELY ACCOLADES ISSUE KIND ADJECTIVES
MAGICAL AURA LEANING ALWAYS INSIDE KINETIC ACCORD
MARVELOUS ACROBAT LEAPING AROUND INFINITE KALEIDOSCOPE AIR
MOMMA, AT LEAST, ALSO I'M KEY ACCOMPLICE
MY ANGEL, LIVELY ABETTOR, IS KINDRED ALLY

4/11/10

DESIRE

You unfold, flower
Halting my unabashed breath
Willing intense fire

Infinite bonding
Careening off the edges
Hanging strong wire

Truthful intimate
Tangled outside melts away
Never to tire

Burning in my soul
Surging through my pulsing veins
Red throbs inspre

2/12/10

TETHERED STRENGTH

I hate the straps
that hold me in
they get in the way
like liquid sin

Monster red tape
that sticks to me
it has no give
to let me flee

Icky tight bonds
that rule my life
I grasp at strings
nothing but strife

I loathe the rope
that ties me down
cinching my breath
furrowed deep frown

Dig for the strrength
I know is there
fight the tether
release the snare

I burn the straps
that hold me in
feel the mad rush
of cooling skin

Tear the red tape
that sticks to me
I shred the strips
to set me free

Cut through the bonds
that rule my life
suck in the air
wielding sweet knife

Untie the rope
that ties me down
I see the light
I wear the crown

I found the strength
I knew was there
relieving smile
my world is fair

4/4/10