7:50am

Hello bloggy blog blog.  I am sitting in the computer room with new resident, Richard.  He is swell.  And I too am doing swell sorta.  I gotta start going to 5 days a week at second chance in hayward.  it scares me because im afraid i might fail at it.  I just dont know how to keep myself motivated and going.  I am afraid that I will drink.  I am afraid that my resilience will fade.  I am afraid that I'll be homeless again.  I am afraid that I will dissapoint people that care about me.  I am afraid.