DOUBTING DESIRE

shaking like I'm on the Grizzly
gotta gotta go
maybe I can find a way out
trying true tip-toe
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shoes off I go for the window
slightly stepping slide
but that turns into quaking limbs
soft surrender sighed
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halfway between death and freedom
make up maddening mind
standing with my eyes aimed forward
bleakest bi-way bind
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accept failure and back i go
hello hellish hole
or face the fear that slags me down
getting gleaming goal
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blackest pit is the easiest way
silence witting still
falling back in the smoother route
kinda karma kill
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senses fractured and lonely dark
creates calming cache
but my unused heart transforms to
growing ghastly gash
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so do i opt the other one
window wonder world
scary trembling steps i must take
forcing fingers furled
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breathing begins to get raspy
anxious ache amid
quivers start to boil over
locate leveling lid
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escaping through the keyhole-pane
kneading knotty knack
use the light that comes from within
losing labored lack
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don't let things addle you up like
polarizing l poles
have faith in the choice made by our
shining shaky souls

12/16/10