I can't find them,
body cold.
Hello lover,
under sold.
Lady get it
in my gut.
Sever it like
silver smut.
Incognito
all around.
Kisses blown, but
never found.
Maybe warming
blood it flows
from deeper heart
out my toes.
I can see it
through the veil.
Almost alive,
grunting male.
Mixing the two
in my brain
causes meltdown,
darkest pain.
But i endure
somewhat there.
Flickering, not
worse for wear.
I can find them
I just learned.
Earn light love, and
evil's spurned.
8/29/10
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
BIRTHDAY
erupt from cozy armored skin
unsure limbs reach out for depth
outraged breath shakes surrounding ears
watery orbs search for comfort
in that angled
unfolding face
of just seconds
before the light
8/21/10
unsure limbs reach out for depth
outraged breath shakes surrounding ears
watery orbs search for comfort
in that angled
unfolding face
of just seconds
before the light
8/21/10
SCARS
My scar will be better
Deeper turning black
Cut it open
Keep moving
Mom
That fucking hurts
All muscle
Worst pain
Mom
Pictures
Then curse
8/7/10
Deeper turning black
Cut it open
Keep moving
Mom
That fucking hurts
All muscle
Worst pain
Mom
Pictures
Then curse
8/7/10
COMPOSITION
Inside, my string of thoughts
Lie
To me
Saying
Candied words are more important,
Liberal dollops of twist will suffice,
And much grammar can be thrown out.
Outside, my docile tongue
Reads
Aloud
Singing
Truth leaps around the drabbest notes,
Blunted lyrics are accepted,
And fancy counts can be embraced.
8/3/10
Lie
To me
Saying
Candied words are more important,
Liberal dollops of twist will suffice,
And much grammar can be thrown out.
Outside, my docile tongue
Reads
Aloud
Singing
Truth leaps around the drabbest notes,
Blunted lyrics are accepted,
And fancy counts can be embraced.
8/3/10
SPIDERFLEX
hold it steady
one last time
endure the raw
creeping jolt
ZAP
manage tidy
unleashed cells
intricate web
of clear flesh
GLEAM
sentry feels it
unfold ripe
faceted eyes
beating down
SPY
wicked needles
count to eight
poky black limbs
padding near
STALK
silky tendrils entomb bzzz
poison whispers
pinch the loud
HUSH
8/3/10
one last time
endure the raw
creeping jolt
ZAP
manage tidy
unleashed cells
intricate web
of clear flesh
GLEAM
sentry feels it
unfold ripe
faceted eyes
beating down
SPY
wicked needles
count to eight
poky black limbs
padding near
STALK
silky tendrils entomb bzzz
poison whispers
pinch the loud
HUSH
8/3/10
ME WORDS
Absent minded prophecy
Beating in my chest
Writing aching hand
Ragged manifest
Twisted words they come
Creeping down my arm
Scrawling jotty letters
Quickly taking form
Coming from the deep
Scrambling into sight
Ambling into place
Tetris-angled light
Ink meeting paper
Passion flutter free
Out in the open
Absolutely me
7/25 or 26/10
Beating in my chest
Writing aching hand
Ragged manifest
Twisted words they come
Creeping down my arm
Scrawling jotty letters
Quickly taking form
Coming from the deep
Scrambling into sight
Ambling into place
Tetris-angled light
Ink meeting paper
Passion flutter free
Out in the open
Absolutely me
7/25 or 26/10
BLUES
I SING THE BLUES
BETWEEN SHOCKS DOWN
MY SPINAL CORD.
I TEND THE BEAT,
KEEPING AT BAY
MY DEMON SWORD.
I LEARN THE STEPS
AFTER BUGS ROT
MY DANCING HOLE.
I KNOW THE SONG,
NAMING IT WELL;
MY DOUBLE SOUL.
7/17/10
BETWEEN SHOCKS DOWN
MY SPINAL CORD.
I TEND THE BEAT,
KEEPING AT BAY
MY DEMON SWORD.
I LEARN THE STEPS
AFTER BUGS ROT
MY DANCING HOLE.
I KNOW THE SONG,
NAMING IT WELL;
MY DOUBLE SOUL.
7/17/10
TIMES
sometimes i fly
else i'm falling
it is just hard
finding the strength
but i prevail
my soul intact
slowly changing
times to always
7/15/10
else i'm falling
it is just hard
finding the strength
but i prevail
my soul intact
slowly changing
times to always
7/15/10
TANGLED SUNNY
Hear my tangled insides erupt
onto ash-free
ears.
Tainted belly of crier's past
rending acid
tears.
Dance around mottled cricket chirps
deep beneath the
beat.
Colored iris and brow be wet
surging through the
heat.
Wide scream at clouded frailties
over mountain-
tops.
Solar melt disdain into pools
stringing timid
drops.
Mask the enduring up and down
joyous end to
come.
Make this growth a sunny soul one
anything but
numb.
7/15/10
onto ash-free
ears.
Tainted belly of crier's past
rending acid
tears.
Dance around mottled cricket chirps
deep beneath the
beat.
Colored iris and brow be wet
surging through the
heat.
Wide scream at clouded frailties
over mountain-
tops.
Solar melt disdain into pools
stringing timid
drops.
Mask the enduring up and down
joyous end to
come.
Make this growth a sunny soul one
anything but
numb.
7/15/10
MODIFICATION
SITTING HERE
EAR TO EAR
ON THIS SPHERE
CAN I STEER
SWERVING VEER
HEART A SPEAR
HOLD YOUR TEAR
WITH A SMEAR
YEAR BY YEAR
DO I HEAR
DISTANT CHEER
REACHING NEAR
IN THE CLEAR
BITING BLEAR
NO MORE FEAR
HAVE I DEAR
OR A PEER
TO TURN MERE
TIMID DREAR
SHINY SHEER
SLIDING TIER
GLANCING JEER
WRECKING SNEER
CHANGING GEAR
7/14/10
EAR TO EAR
ON THIS SPHERE
CAN I STEER
SWERVING VEER
HEART A SPEAR
HOLD YOUR TEAR
WITH A SMEAR
YEAR BY YEAR
DO I HEAR
DISTANT CHEER
REACHING NEAR
IN THE CLEAR
BITING BLEAR
NO MORE FEAR
HAVE I DEAR
OR A PEER
TO TURN MERE
TIMID DREAR
SHINY SHEER
SLIDING TIER
GLANCING JEER
WRECKING SNEER
CHANGING GEAR
7/14/10
BANE BEARINGS
brood upon this changed
swimming sphere
the knowledge: the pain
narrowing near
inhale once towards
yearning year
eternally spend
holding here
teach to refrain from
swerving steer
cleverly disguised
vaulting veer
be faithful into
etching ear
don't fall for sneak-ish
tainting tear
weigh the two as gold
cutting clear
sharpen your teeth for
biting blear
prepare the cargo
dropping drear
ready the troops for
fighting fear
joyous, wear epic
jarring jeer
downshift in always
guarding gear
arm rugged hands with
slicing spear
patient and step sure
tipping tier
up high see its scourge
shining sheer
eyes sharp need avoid
masking mirror
7/14/10
swimming sphere
the knowledge: the pain
narrowing near
inhale once towards
yearning year
eternally spend
holding here
teach to refrain from
swerving steer
cleverly disguised
vaulting veer
be faithful into
etching ear
don't fall for sneak-ish
tainting tear
weigh the two as gold
cutting clear
sharpen your teeth for
biting blear
prepare the cargo
dropping drear
ready the troops for
fighting fear
joyous, wear epic
jarring jeer
downshift in always
guarding gear
arm rugged hands with
slicing spear
patient and step sure
tipping tier
up high see its scourge
shining sheer
eyes sharp need avoid
masking mirror
7/14/10
ENCOUNTERS
COUNTING
ONE TWO THREE
EACH TOME THE CLOCK ZIPS
TRACKING
CHECK AND TEST
WHEN THE RADAR BLIPS
GUARDING
MY PASSION
LIKE GREY BATTLESHIPS
LOADING
CLEAR BULLETS
IT NEVER EQUIPS
WAVING
SOLDIER HAND
WHITE GLOVED DRESSY WHIPS
ANGLING
ONE-EIGHTY
THE WAY MY MIND RIPS
RENDING
INSIDE OUT
INTO FLESHY STRIPS
WELTING
TAKE CONTROL
OF THE SLICING WHIPS
FLAILING
LEFT AND RIGHT
LOSING ALL MY GRIPS
FALLING
DOWN OR OVER
CANDY-COATED SLIPS
ADDING
A PLUS B
EQUATING THE HARDSHIPS
DRINKING
FROM THE CUP
I GET ONLY SIPS
SWIMMING
COLD WATER
FEELS LIKE SKINNY-DIPS
DRIPPING
FROM MY PORES
SUPERLATIVE QUIPS
DRYING
ALL OVER
WITH ONLY Q-TIPS
DANCING
WHIRL AROUND
COMING FROM MY HIPS
SMILING
EAR TO EAR
QUIVER ON MY LIPS
BREATHING
IN AND OUT
I NEED THE ROUND TRIPS
FLUSHING
RED AND PINK
BEAT OF MY SKIN SKIPS
RUSHING
INTO VAIN
LOVELY EGO TRIPS
FLYING
INNER SOUL
NEEDING PURPLE FLIPS
MATING
ROBOTIC
SEEKING PARTNERSHIPS
SINGING
THE HIGH NOTES
MANY FELLOWSHIPS
LOVING
LITTLE HEART
ONLY FINGERTIPS
STALKING
STEP BY STEP
REAL SINCERE FRIENDSHIPS
7/2/10
ONE TWO THREE
EACH TOME THE CLOCK ZIPS
TRACKING
CHECK AND TEST
WHEN THE RADAR BLIPS
GUARDING
MY PASSION
LIKE GREY BATTLESHIPS
LOADING
CLEAR BULLETS
IT NEVER EQUIPS
WAVING
SOLDIER HAND
WHITE GLOVED DRESSY WHIPS
ANGLING
ONE-EIGHTY
THE WAY MY MIND RIPS
RENDING
INSIDE OUT
INTO FLESHY STRIPS
WELTING
TAKE CONTROL
OF THE SLICING WHIPS
FLAILING
LEFT AND RIGHT
LOSING ALL MY GRIPS
FALLING
DOWN OR OVER
CANDY-COATED SLIPS
ADDING
A PLUS B
EQUATING THE HARDSHIPS
DRINKING
FROM THE CUP
I GET ONLY SIPS
SWIMMING
COLD WATER
FEELS LIKE SKINNY-DIPS
DRIPPING
FROM MY PORES
SUPERLATIVE QUIPS
DRYING
ALL OVER
WITH ONLY Q-TIPS
DANCING
WHIRL AROUND
COMING FROM MY HIPS
SMILING
EAR TO EAR
QUIVER ON MY LIPS
BREATHING
IN AND OUT
I NEED THE ROUND TRIPS
FLUSHING
RED AND PINK
BEAT OF MY SKIN SKIPS
RUSHING
INTO VAIN
LOVELY EGO TRIPS
FLYING
INNER SOUL
NEEDING PURPLE FLIPS
MATING
ROBOTIC
SEEKING PARTNERSHIPS
SINGING
THE HIGH NOTES
MANY FELLOWSHIPS
LOVING
LITTLE HEART
ONLY FINGERTIPS
STALKING
STEP BY STEP
REAL SINCERE FRIENDSHIPS
7/2/10
CHAKROMATIC
Sometimes i sense color
dark purple swells
dilating all over
a crowned head
colored hair flow
deep amethyst atop
like jewels
bold lilac waves
undulating into
God spirit.
Sometimes i see color
bright cobalt rings
entering an iris
showing self
a true mirror
and sapphire reflection
to realize
gleam indigo
vivid intuitions
to study.
Sometimes i speak color
mouthy azure
careening out of lips
telling speak
words of gem fires
glowing ultramarine
to express
bluish tongue-scape
always keeping alive
hope to trust.
Sometimes i pulse color
beating in green
inside the core abyss
heart whispers
throbbing honor
in emerald sinew
causing love
tempus vert sway
creating infinite
acceptance.
Sometimes i know color
yellow ego
coming from the belly
depicts age
call it wisdom
shiny amber resin
intellect
saffron grey-matter
ordering up savvy
confidence.
Sometimes i feel color
tethered orange
waiting to emerge on
faithful guts
feelings ablaze
on glossy citrine essence
appear in
apricot nerve
rustling to figure out
emotions.
Sometimes i am color
reddest coxus
sitting down to redeem
old assets
moving machine
building ruby castles
to adorn
scarlet functions
basal and logical
learned lesson.
5/25/10
dark purple swells
dilating all over
a crowned head
colored hair flow
deep amethyst atop
like jewels
bold lilac waves
undulating into
God spirit.
Sometimes i see color
bright cobalt rings
entering an iris
showing self
a true mirror
and sapphire reflection
to realize
gleam indigo
vivid intuitions
to study.
Sometimes i speak color
mouthy azure
careening out of lips
telling speak
words of gem fires
glowing ultramarine
to express
bluish tongue-scape
always keeping alive
hope to trust.
Sometimes i pulse color
beating in green
inside the core abyss
heart whispers
throbbing honor
in emerald sinew
causing love
tempus vert sway
creating infinite
acceptance.
Sometimes i know color
yellow ego
coming from the belly
depicts age
call it wisdom
shiny amber resin
intellect
saffron grey-matter
ordering up savvy
confidence.
Sometimes i feel color
tethered orange
waiting to emerge on
faithful guts
feelings ablaze
on glossy citrine essence
appear in
apricot nerve
rustling to figure out
emotions.
Sometimes i am color
reddest coxus
sitting down to redeem
old assets
moving machine
building ruby castles
to adorn
scarlet functions
basal and logical
learned lesson.
5/25/10
GRAMMA
Matriarchal Force
Speckling my Eggs
Nurture, Loving course
Exiling my Rage
Mother Ushered in
right Above my Head
Fading from my Wrists
Liquid until Red
Superficial Jests
Laughing inner Cape
Gramma fashioned Nests
Interlocking Safe
Fighting away Dark
warm Hand Aglow
seeing nothing Stark
Family in Tow
Peaceful lit Hallway
causing Heart to Rest
filling up my Day
ranking Trust Her best
Minty Stomach Cures
next to, in the Car
Generation Mirrors
seemingly Afar
telling Hummingbird
Flutter in my Nape
Soft Bunches of Word
always Touching Fate
Remembering aloud
Singing simply out
Enduring and Proud
Winter Love i shout
5/18/10
Speckling my Eggs
Nurture, Loving course
Exiling my Rage
Mother Ushered in
right Above my Head
Fading from my Wrists
Liquid until Red
Superficial Jests
Laughing inner Cape
Gramma fashioned Nests
Interlocking Safe
Fighting away Dark
warm Hand Aglow
seeing nothing Stark
Family in Tow
Peaceful lit Hallway
causing Heart to Rest
filling up my Day
ranking Trust Her best
Minty Stomach Cures
next to, in the Car
Generation Mirrors
seemingly Afar
telling Hummingbird
Flutter in my Nape
Soft Bunches of Word
always Touching Fate
Remembering aloud
Singing simply out
Enduring and Proud
Winter Love i shout
5/18/10
FAC(E)ADE
Enduring Eyes
mini globes glimpsing forever comfort
Sterling Smile
pulpy beam sprouting spangled astericks
Notable Nose
fleshy pyramid entombing tanglible memory
Brawny Brain
spongy lobes looping veritable senses
5/8/10
mini globes glimpsing forever comfort
Sterling Smile
pulpy beam sprouting spangled astericks
Notable Nose
fleshy pyramid entombing tanglible memory
Brawny Brain
spongy lobes looping veritable senses
5/8/10
JUST A SPADE
the bed where i laid
(FALLING)
full of fearful maim
was black, just a spade
(DIGGING)
mostly where he came
progress i have made
(FLEETING)
to lift up my name
is cut with a blade
(SHINING)
nothing left but lame
what price i have paid
(COUNTING)
playing who's to blame
what if i just stayed
(DANCING)
living in a game
i think i might fade
(BURNING)
waning dying flame
failure, i'm afraid
(DAUNTING)
doubts i have to tame
murky mess, i wade
(SLOSHING)
working past the shame
4/20/10
(FALLING)
full of fearful maim
was black, just a spade
(DIGGING)
mostly where he came
progress i have made
(FLEETING)
to lift up my name
is cut with a blade
(SHINING)
nothing left but lame
what price i have paid
(COUNTING)
playing who's to blame
what if i just stayed
(DANCING)
living in a game
i think i might fade
(BURNING)
waning dying flame
failure, i'm afraid
(DAUNTING)
doubts i have to tame
murky mess, i wade
(SLOSHING)
working past the shame
4/20/10
AFRAID
I AM AFRAID I MIGHT FAIL
I AM AFRAID OF HOW TO KEEP MYSELF MOTIVATED
I AM AFRAID THAT DRINK WILL WIN
I AM AFRAID THAT MY RESILLIENCE WILL FADE
I AM AFRAID THAT I WILL BE HOMELESS AGAIN
I AM AFRAID THAT I WILL DISSAPPOINT THE PEOPLE THAT CARE ABOUT ME
I AM AFRAID.
4/16/10
I AM AFRAID OF HOW TO KEEP MYSELF MOTIVATED
I AM AFRAID THAT DRINK WILL WIN
I AM AFRAID THAT MY RESILLIENCE WILL FADE
I AM AFRAID THAT I WILL BE HOMELESS AGAIN
I AM AFRAID THAT I WILL DISSAPPOINT THE PEOPLE THAT CARE ABOUT ME
I AM AFRAID.
4/16/10
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