HINDER

Syncopated sorrows
searing through used flesh
Pain crystals beat point-blank
aiming toward frayed chest

Why wicked, this showy
when it comes to feed
And hidden in deepest
preternatural need

Requisite breeds soldiers
and its army thrives
Military bases
cold trembling hives

Slow salute forced combat
trudging forward fight
Solemn cry faintly heard
war-racked silent night

Sun hinders the darkness
creep away the beast
Retreat back to the light
anxious achy feast

Gnash away gnarly teeth
fleeting safety met
Deceiving asylum
child eyes not earned yet

Inevitable join
this eve or afar
Heal in sunlit hallows
wear the scars that mar

11/16/10

PASSING PAIN

Guilt embraces like metal thorns
Surmised sin fraught and deeply worn
Let tears through guardian lashes
An end of blood-hot to ashes

Over-indulging reveries
And wicked one-way fantasies

Turbid smoke permeates my wounds
The color of anemic moons
A stifling cue of creeping fire
I wince against the taut barbed-wire

Graceful love like healing fingers
Massaging soul touch that lingers
Allow joy to draw through ripe veins
A splendid finish line remains

Conjure good and visualize
Healthy daydreams to realize

Intimate tact beating my heart
Tangible strokes creates raw art
Grazing palpus reminds the brain
I hug notions of passing pain

11/4/10

THE HUMAN QUANDARY

SENSUAL HOMO-SAPIEN
FLESHY FEET OF CLAY
COSMOPOLITAN NOMAD
WITH
IMMORTAL LIVING SOUL

MERCURIAL ANTHROPOID
KINETIC BEAST OF EARTH
TEMPORAL CARNAL CREATURE
AND
ANIMAL FATALITY

10/21/10

SAFETY

Sometimes
I sleep,
my eyes
pinned open
by lucid needles.
Orbs leaking
because
dry will
bring
an extinct thirst
originating
in
nearby
ripened
nuclei.
Transparent skewers
rending
ancient saline
exterior.

Sometimes
I wake up,
my eyes
sewn shut
by
invisible threads.
I cry silent
since
loud will
ruin
the only safe
created
by
distant
childlike
synapses.
Organic fibers
keeping
infantile tears
intestinal.

10/19/10

DAMN.

Scream, hear you, why so loud, so insistent?
What am I missing, is it really that friggin' obvious?
Can't be.
All I need is to do what?
It's not that easy, clarity I need.
I am failing to see a link.
The most and the least important.
I have the end and the beginning.
The middle, the middle?
Really?
Why is that the answer?
No, the beginning...
The end...
The end hasn't ended yet, so is the answer my ending?
I think action will lead me to my ending.
My beginning becomes changed if I change the end?
Drat!
Always stuck with that: a question of action, and my motives are to judge.
Scary realities, too much, too handle.
So I careen, forward without meaningful...
For this reason: safety.
It's key to sleep, to create, to dream, to love.
So many things hinging.
So then how do i feel safe creating my end? 
That's the quandary and the answer: all at the same time, damn!

10/3/10

BRING TO NAUGHT

I

shut

my eyes

sensing

a thought.

It graces my presence.

Only it is so

fleeting,

leaving

my tongue

of burnt shadows

singed

at the sides,

like old love letters.

If only so tangible.

Grasp it fast

would edify.

But i cower from it:

the result.

Thinking

knowledge is lethal,

I will let the savor

suffice.

By

reason logical:

fear

plus

enlightenment

equals

failure.

And bringing to naught

is

poison.

Paltry

yet

potent.

10/3/10

NOCTERIUM

CONTROVERSIAL

UNDER

OR

EQUAL

NOT EVEN

BACTERIA

FROM GLAZE

NOCTERIUM

CAN SIT ON MY CHIN

AND COME OUT FIGHTING

SIMILAR

SPECS

OF

LIGHT

AIR MECCA

TO THE

RIGHT

FORCEFUL

WOES

TURNED

&

MIND BOWS

BURNED

9/24/10

"----------------------------"

THERE IS A LINE

BETWEEN

I

AND

YOU.

YOU

CAME

INTO

I.

I

CRIED

INSIDE,

I

BURIED,

I

PUSHED,

I

HID.

YOU

CONSUMED

MINUTE PIECES OF

I.

YOU

LASHED,

YOU

PUSHED,

YOU

CONSUMED

MINUTE PIECES OF

I.

I

CAN'T

TAKE

IT

BACK,

I

CAN'T

SHAKE

IT

OFF,

BUT

I

CAN

FORGIVE.

WHAT

YOU

TOOK,

I

CAN

GIVE.

WHAT

YOU

SHOOK,

I

CAN

HOLD

STILL.

I

HAVE TO GIVE

YOU

THIS.

I

HAVE TO PUT THAT

LINE BACK BETWEEN

I

AND

YOU.

I

CAN CLEARLY SEE

WHEN I WRITE IT:

FORGIVENESS

IS

THE

LINE.

I

------------FORGIVE------------

YOU.

9/22/10

MAKING THE BED

YOU ARE MESSING UP MY BED
OFTEN TIMES ITS LEAD
PLURALIZE PLEASE THE MISSION
COMING TO FRUITION
CAN YOU MAKE IT?
YOU PIECE OF SHIT!
JUST NEVER MIND
I'LL NEVER FIND
SOMEONE
TO COMPLETE
THE COVERS
ON MY BED.

8/29/10

SEARCHLIGHT

I can't find them,
body cold.
Hello lover,
under sold.

Lady get it
in my gut.
Sever it like
silver smut.

Incognito
all around.
Kisses blown, but
never found.

Maybe warming
blood it flows
from deeper heart
out my toes.

I can see it
through the veil.
Almost alive,
grunting male.

Mixing the two
in my brain
causes meltdown,
darkest pain.

But i endure
somewhat there.
Flickering, not
worse for wear.

I can find them
I just learned.
Earn light love, and
evil's spurned.

8/29/10

BIRTHDAY

erupt from cozy armored skin
unsure limbs reach out for depth
outraged breath shakes surrounding ears
watery orbs search for comfort
in that angled
unfolding face
of just seconds
before the light

8/21/10

SCARS

My scar will be better
Deeper turning black
Cut it open
Keep moving
Mom
That fucking hurts
All muscle
Worst pain
Mom
Pictures
Then curse

8/7/10

COMPOSITION

Inside, my string of thoughts
Lie
To me
Saying
Candied words are more important,
Liberal dollops of twist will suffice,
And much grammar can be thrown out.

Outside, my docile tongue
Reads
Aloud
Singing
Truth leaps around the drabbest notes,
Blunted lyrics are accepted,
And fancy counts can be embraced.

8/3/10

SPIDERFLEX

hold it steady
one last time
endure the raw
creeping jolt
ZAP
manage tidy
unleashed cells
intricate web
of clear flesh
GLEAM
sentry feels it
unfold ripe
faceted eyes
beating down
SPY
wicked needles
count to eight
poky black limbs
padding near
STALK
silky tendrils entomb bzzz
poison whispers
pinch the loud
HUSH

8/3/10

REFLEX

Slow motion (easier
angles relax and soften)
proves nothing special.

7/30/10

ME WORDS

Absent minded prophecy
Beating in my chest
Writing aching hand
Ragged manifest

Twisted words they come
Creeping down my arm
Scrawling jotty letters
Quickly taking form

Coming from the deep
Scrambling into sight
Ambling into place
Tetris-angled light

Ink meeting paper
Passion flutter free
Out in the open
Absolutely me

7/25 or 26/10

BLUES

I SING THE BLUES
BETWEEN SHOCKS DOWN
MY SPINAL CORD.
I TEND THE BEAT,
KEEPING AT BAY
MY DEMON SWORD.
I LEARN THE STEPS
AFTER BUGS ROT
MY DANCING HOLE.
I KNOW THE SONG,
NAMING IT WELL;
MY DOUBLE SOUL.

7/17/10

CAPTURE

Heart's eyes are crying.
Seeing pain reflect off flesh.
Salty sinew tomb.

7/17/10

TIMES

sometimes i fly
else i'm falling
it is just hard
finding the strength
but i prevail
my soul intact
slowly changing
times to always

7/15/10

TANGLED SUNNY

Hear my tangled insides erupt
onto ash-free
ears.
Tainted belly of crier's past
rending acid
tears.
Dance around mottled cricket chirps
deep beneath the
beat.
Colored iris and brow be wet
surging through the
heat.
Wide scream at clouded frailties
over mountain-
tops.
Solar melt disdain into pools
stringing timid
drops.
Mask the enduring up and down
joyous end to
come.
Make this growth a sunny soul one
anything but
numb.

7/15/10

MODIFICATION

SITTING HERE
EAR TO EAR
ON THIS SPHERE
CAN I STEER
SWERVING VEER
HEART A SPEAR
HOLD YOUR TEAR
WITH A SMEAR
YEAR BY YEAR
DO I HEAR
DISTANT CHEER
REACHING NEAR
IN THE CLEAR
BITING BLEAR
NO MORE FEAR
HAVE I DEAR
OR A PEER
TO TURN MERE
TIMID DREAR
SHINY SHEER
SLIDING TIER
GLANCING JEER
WRECKING SNEER
CHANGING GEAR

7/14/10

BANE BEARINGS

brood upon this changed
                                      swimming sphere
the knowledge: the pain
                                      narrowing near
inhale once towards
                                      yearning year
eternally spend
                                      holding here
teach to refrain from
                                      swerving steer
cleverly disguised
                                      vaulting veer
be faithful into
                                      etching ear
don't fall for sneak-ish
                                      tainting tear
weigh the two as gold
                                      cutting clear
sharpen your teeth for
                                      biting blear
prepare the cargo
                                      dropping drear
ready the troops for
                                      fighting fear
joyous, wear epic
                                      jarring jeer
downshift in always
                                      guarding gear
arm rugged hands with
                                      slicing spear
patient and step sure
                                      tipping tier
up high see its scourge
                                      shining sheer
eyes sharp need avoid
                                      masking mirror

                                      7/14/10

ENCOUNTERS

COUNTING
ONE TWO THREE
EACH TOME THE CLOCK ZIPS
TRACKING
CHECK AND TEST
WHEN THE RADAR BLIPS
GUARDING
MY PASSION
LIKE GREY BATTLESHIPS
LOADING
CLEAR BULLETS
IT NEVER EQUIPS
WAVING
SOLDIER HAND
WHITE GLOVED DRESSY WHIPS

ANGLING
ONE-EIGHTY
THE WAY MY MIND RIPS
RENDING
INSIDE OUT
INTO FLESHY STRIPS
WELTING
TAKE CONTROL
OF THE SLICING WHIPS
FLAILING
LEFT AND RIGHT
LOSING ALL MY GRIPS
FALLING
DOWN OR OVER
CANDY-COATED SLIPS

ADDING
A PLUS B
EQUATING THE HARDSHIPS
DRINKING
FROM THE CUP
I GET ONLY SIPS
SWIMMING
COLD WATER
FEELS LIKE SKINNY-DIPS
DRIPPING
FROM MY PORES
SUPERLATIVE QUIPS
DRYING
ALL OVER
WITH ONLY Q-TIPS

DANCING
WHIRL AROUND
COMING FROM MY HIPS
SMILING
EAR TO EAR
QUIVER ON MY LIPS
BREATHING
IN AND OUT
I NEED THE ROUND TRIPS
FLUSHING
RED AND PINK
BEAT OF MY SKIN SKIPS
RUSHING
INTO VAIN
LOVELY EGO TRIPS

FLYING
INNER SOUL
NEEDING PURPLE FLIPS
MATING
ROBOTIC
SEEKING PARTNERSHIPS
SINGING
THE HIGH NOTES
MANY FELLOWSHIPS
LOVING
LITTLE HEART
ONLY FINGERTIPS
STALKING
STEP BY STEP
REAL SINCERE FRIENDSHIPS

7/2/10

CHAKROMATIC

Sometimes i sense color
dark purple swells
dilating all over
a crowned head
colored hair flow
deep amethyst atop
like jewels
bold lilac waves
undulating into
God spirit.

Sometimes i see color
bright cobalt rings
entering an iris
showing self
a true mirror
and sapphire reflection
to realize
gleam indigo
vivid intuitions
to study.

Sometimes i speak color
mouthy azure
careening out of lips
telling speak
words of gem fires
glowing ultramarine
to express
bluish tongue-scape
always keeping alive
hope to trust.

Sometimes i pulse color
beating in green
inside the core abyss
heart whispers
throbbing honor
in emerald sinew
causing love
tempus vert sway
creating infinite
acceptance.

Sometimes i know color
yellow ego
coming from the belly
depicts age
call it wisdom
shiny amber resin
intellect
saffron grey-matter
ordering up savvy
confidence.

Sometimes i feel color
tethered orange
waiting to emerge on
faithful guts
feelings ablaze
on glossy citrine essence
appear in
apricot nerve
rustling to figure out
emotions.

Sometimes i am color
reddest coxus
sitting down to redeem
old assets
moving machine
building ruby castles
to adorn
scarlet functions
basal and logical
learned lesson.

5/25/10

GRAMMA

Matriarchal Force
Speckling my Eggs
Nurture, Loving course
Exiling my Rage
Mother Ushered in
right Above my Head
Fading from my Wrists
Liquid until Red
Superficial Jests
Laughing inner Cape
Gramma fashioned Nests
Interlocking Safe
Fighting away Dark
warm Hand Aglow
seeing nothing Stark
Family in Tow
Peaceful lit Hallway
causing Heart to Rest
filling up my Day
ranking Trust Her best
Minty Stomach Cures
next to, in the Car
Generation Mirrors
seemingly Afar
telling Hummingbird
Flutter in my Nape
Soft Bunches of Word
always Touching Fate
Remembering aloud
Singing simply out
Enduring and Proud
Winter Love i shout

5/18/10

FAC(E)ADE

Enduring Eyes
mini globes glimpsing forever comfort
Sterling Smile
pulpy beam sprouting spangled astericks
Notable Nose
fleshy pyramid entombing tanglible memory
Brawny Brain
spongy lobes looping veritable senses

5/8/10

JUST A SPADE

the bed where i laid
(FALLING)
full of fearful maim
was black, just a spade
(DIGGING)
mostly where he came
progress i have made
(FLEETING)
to lift up my name
is cut with a blade
(SHINING)
nothing left but lame
what price i have paid
(COUNTING)
playing who's to blame
what if i just stayed
(DANCING)
living in a game
i think i might fade
(BURNING)
waning dying flame
failure, i'm afraid
(DAUNTING)
doubts i have to tame
murky mess, i wade
(SLOSHING)
working past the shame

4/20/10

AFRAID

I AM AFRAID I MIGHT FAIL
I AM AFRAID OF HOW TO KEEP MYSELF MOTIVATED
I AM AFRAID THAT DRINK WILL WIN
I AM AFRAID THAT MY RESILLIENCE WILL FADE
I AM AFRAID THAT I WILL BE HOMELESS AGAIN
I AM AFRAID THAT I WILL DISSAPPOINT THE PEOPLE THAT CARE ABOUT ME

I AM AFRAID.

4/16/10

HOPE

A rare find, inside
tied to a raw pole;
round & round it goes.

3/11/10