DAMN.

Scream, hear you, why so loud, so insistent?
What am I missing, is it really that friggin' obvious?
Can't be.
All I need is to do what?
It's not that easy, clarity I need.
I am failing to see a link.
The most and the least important.
I have the end and the beginning.
The middle, the middle?
Really?
Why is that the answer?
No, the beginning...
The end...
The end hasn't ended yet, so is the answer my ending?
I think action will lead me to my ending.
My beginning becomes changed if I change the end?
Drat!
Always stuck with that: a question of action, and my motives are to judge.
Scary realities, too much, too handle.
So I careen, forward without meaningful...
For this reason: safety.
It's key to sleep, to create, to dream, to love.
So many things hinging.
So then how do i feel safe creating my end? 
That's the quandary and the answer: all at the same time, damn!

10/3/10